I’ve been wanting to update every day since my last post, but I just haven’t had the time to do it. I’ve been waiting for a few non-exclusive photo agents to get back to me about selling my photographs as well as trying to think of ways to sell them offline and I’ve updating the [...]

I just wanted to let you all know that I’m still around. I had a wonderful weekend which I’d love to talk about but unfortunately today a family emergency came up. My grandmother has been rushed to hospital and is currently undergoing an operation to locate a perferation in her bowels.
Hopefully I’ll be back shortly [...]

This is a show I’ve wanted to see for years. I remember saying when I first started college that I wanted to see the show. Which is over five years ago. Unfortunately every time I wanted to book or thought about booking tickets they were sold out.
Finally though, after all these years, I’m going to [...]

This is really weird, maybe even freaky. Just now (mind you it’s past midnight at the moment) my phone rang. So I check caller ID only to find out it’s my mom calling. When I pick up I don’t hear anything until my provider tells me the connection got cut off.
Since I live next door [...]

Shit, we’re out of the World Cup. For those of you who haven’t seen the match Portugal – The Netherlands, make sure you read the papers tomorrow or something as this will be a match that will be talked about for a long time.
The referee gave out 17 yellow and 4 red cards during this [...]

What is it with some store employees? Some of them are so terribly rude or uninterested in their customers.
A few days ago I had to go on a mad hunt for a new wireless adapter as my previous one broke down. I have two options when it comes to shopping; the city which is a [...]

I only just realized what a bitch I can be. Lately I found myself stating my opinion about everything and everyone. Of course good opinions are always nice to hear but I noticed a lot of them aren’t always very nice.
Now having an opinion on things and therefor having a mind of your own is [...]

-Gets on Soapbox-
This is ridiculous, surely Bavaria isn’t an official sponsor of the FIFA world cup but the rules don’t state that FIFA can decide what soccer fans wear. Do you really think anyone pays attention to what brand of beer is written on a pair of pants? I don’t even think you would see [...]

Leisure
is time spent in non-compulsory activities. Because leisure time is free from compulsory activities such as employment, running a business, household, chores, education, eating, and sleeping it is often referred to as “free time”. The distinction between leisure and compulsory activities is not strict, as compulsory activities may be done for pleasure as [...]

Some people make a fuss about nothing. Just like in this story. So she posed topless online on her own website, what’s the big deal. Loads of people do it. If someone feels comfortable doing that and sees it as art rather than pornography, I really don’t see what the problem is. As long as [...]

If you surf as many sites as I do you’re bound to find some things you don’t like. And if you like anything and everything you see you should really try to develop an opinion .
The thing I noticed a lot lately is advertisement on personal domains. Why on earth would anyone pay for [...]

What is it with kids these days, they seem to think they can get away with everything. Of course back in the day I played some pranks on family and friends. The innocent kind of pranks that is.
But these days I see and hear kids getting more rude, aggressive and committing serious crimes at a [...]

What is it that makes me want to watch a movie about bees (called Killer Bees) on TV while I’m Spheksophobic.
Spheksophobia
Fear of Wasps
From The Phobia List

I guess it’s just because I know those bees can’t get to me through the TV, unlike the ones from the wasps nest outside near my patio. Luckily someone is [...]

Something I’ve always wanted to do in life, even before the CSI hype, was become a forensic scientist. Work with DNA and other evidence to help solve cases etc. That’s what really interests me. Unfortunately there isn’t a big work field in The Netherlands for it. We have one forensic laboratory which, if I remember [...]

What do you do on a warm Sunday afternoon when you’ve spend most of the morning on the Internet finding interesting sites? You get your ass outside and enjoy the sun. For me that includes taking my camera with me. I love photography and I’m very proud to say I got published two months in [...]

There are various reasons why one might be on benefits. Some (and I hope most) are legitimate. Sometimes you just can’t help it and it’s not really something to be ashamed off.
Today though I was watching a program on TV and there was a family with eight children. Four or five of them where under [...]

Obviously there are people who don’t like soccer, or as they say in the UK, football. With the world cup starting in a few days there will be quiet a lot of people bummed out by the fact there won’t be much else on TV than football.
I’m not one of those people as I can [...]

Exclusive

Not divided or shared with others.
From Dictionary.com

In this context wouldn’t it include material you get only when you are a paying member of something? Of course I know that the internet is often used to share this information but doesn’t being a paying member give you the right to tell other paying members not to [...]

Maybe I shouldn’t even write this. It’s too much attention for them and I guess that’s what they want.
I’m talking about our new ‘political party‘ here. It’s set up by and (even though they claim different) for pedophiles. Now I hear you say WHAT? That’s exactly what I thought when I heard it.
They want to [...]

We all know it, although most of us try to convince themselves it’s not true. It’s not even limited to one country or one continent. Actually it’s not even limited to people.
I guess this swan thinks his lover turned out beautiful after being an ugly duckling. Let’s hope the truth doesn’t hurt him too bad [...]

After a topic about a childhood toy on a Dutch forum I started thinking about my childhood. On a hunt for the name of this particular toy*, I came across a whole lot of TV shows I used to watch when I was young.
Who remembers My Little Pony, The Gummi Bears, The Smurfs, The Snorks, [...]

What happened to the soccer matches on Sunday afternoon, that you could go and enjoy with the whole family. These days soccer is not only about fun anymore but about fights and destruction before, after and even during the match.
I always wondered why fans fight when a match is over, or why they set up [...]

When I read this I suddenly felt very sad. It’s sad enough if someone has to sell something they own to be able to pay for something else they really need. Especially if it’s to pay for something that relates to health. But it’s even more sad when that thing you want (or rather, need) [...]

Honestly I never expected this and hopefully it was a single accident that doesn’t happen again. Not only because I don’t want people to bother me with it but also because I don’t want any strangers on the property. It sure makes you wonder if they are using new tactics these days.
By now I probably [...]

I like coffee. Especially the coffee from Starbucks. Unfortunately for me, there is no Starbucks around here. Actually, I don’t think there is one to be found in the entire country!
What’s up with that? All I want is a good store where I can get my Coffee To Go while walking around town. The only [...]

There are , of course, all kinds of pleasure. But the one I’m talking about here is viewing pleasure. No not the -view from your window- kind of pleasure. For me that’s no pleasure at all, I either look out on the parking lot across the street or straight into my neighbor’s living room. Believe [...]

You might just want to watch your dog from now on. When he / she starts sniffing your DVD collection you might just have a problem on your hands. Why? Because last week the U.K. started working with Flo and Lucky; Two sniffer dogs trained to find DVD packages. The goal of course is to [...]

Since today’s weather was so bad, I didn’t really want to go outside. So instead I found myself a comfortable spot on the sofa, took out my beloved laptop and started browsing around to random sites.
Besides the occasional Mozilla incompatible website (where IE comes to the rescue, although I never thought I’d say that) I [...]

I still haven’t finished redecorating my new apartment. The bathroom and toilet still need new tiling and the new shower needs to be installed.
The tiles have been ordered two weeks ago and tomorrow we’re driving up to the store to see if they are in. They said they would call if they where but, from [...]

Silent Butterfly is currently under construction. Many links won’t work properly and in Internet Explorer you see that the header image is moved to the left a bit instead of being aligned properly!
The reason for all of this is that I’m converting from Iframes. I’m glad I did it it just takes a little bit [...]

What is it with dog owners that take their dog with them everywhere. And than I mean everywhere. I have relatives that take their dog with them to visit family. Personally I wouldn’t appreciate it if someone took their dog with them when they came to visit me. Not even if it’s a small dog. [...]

Usually they say that no news is good news. But when it comes to blogging no news means a boring entry…. I’m still waiting for my contract to come in, although I got a raise last friday (which will start from June if my contracts get renewed). So it’s sort of good news but basically [...]

Finally the weather has started to become really good. It’s still spring but it feels like summer outside. Not that I’m complaining, it’s a hell of a lot better than rain!! Apparently the weather will be a bit colder again from Monday on, but the weather forecast has been wrong a lot of times so [...]

Saturday was the first meeting of the Official Dutch Street Team for Hanson. If you’re a regular to my site you probably know what I’m talking about but if you’re a first time visitor you might not have a clue. So before I go on I’ll give a little explanation of what the Street Team [...]

So finally, Silent Butterfly has a new layout. I’ve been working on it for a little while now and only got around to putting it up and changing my css today. Unfortunately Mirna beat me to it, her layout has been up for a few days now and as you might notice, there are some [...]

D.U.W.S.W.T.S.C.H. – Drug Using, Wooden Shoe Wearing, Tulip Sniffing Cheese Head
Yep, that’s usually the first thing people say (online anyway) when I tell them I’m Dutch. It seems that everyone thinks that all Dutch people use drugs.
Sure, The Netherlands is known for it’s weird1 drugs policy but that doesn’t mean everyone here uses drugs. Actually [...]

Ooh yeah this past weekend I moved into my new apartment. I have to say Dad worked really hard to get things ready (and of course I helped him where I could). He even worked on his days off and on Easter Sunday. Dad doesn’t mind doing it though, I asked him a few times [...]

Yay, time for another – Chans is moving update post -. Things are going quickly now, the floor in the bedroom is done, the floor in the living room is nearly done. All the walls are painted as well as the ceilings. The living room floor will be finished tomorrow and than we can start [...]

Usually I’m considered a very friendly person (or so I’m told anyway). I get comments like ‘you seem to like everyone you meet‘ or ‘you always see the good things in people‘. But (fortunately) that’s not always the case. There are certain people I see on a regular basis (not by choice!) that I really [...]

I’m making a lot of progress on the redecorating of my apartment. So here’s the story on what’s been done and what still needs to be done, in a nutshell.
01. Clean kitchen cabinets
02. Clean kitchen tiles
03. Clean kitchen floor
04. Wash kitchen curtains
05. Wash kitchen window
06. Move in kitchen appliances
07. Paint living room walls
08. Paint living room ceiling
09. Wash [...]

It’s been ages since the last update (is it just me or do I always start an entry with this sentence?) but a lot of things have happened over the past few weeks. First of all I got the keys to the apartment a few days before the actual transfer so I was able to [...]

Yay if things go well I will have the keys to my apartment by next Friday or Saturday. Currently the apartment is nearly empty, it only has a few more things from the previous owner in it which (from what I hear from the rumormill) are going to be taken away sometime in the coming [...]

I think everyone is used to it by now that I don’t update when I say I will and that I’m always late. It’s been exactly 2 weeks since my last update. I suppose that’s the longest time between posts ever, or at least the longest time I can remember (and my memory isn’t really that [...]

Last Thursday I drove back from work and wanted to swap CDs in my car radio. So I picked up 3 CDs I had laying around to pick one out while I was waiting for a traffic light. So I swapped CDs and put the rest of them back where I got them from. I [...]

Wow it seems like I’ve been gone forever. But I haven’t disappeared. I just have been really busy with my offline life, you know, my job, housework and when I can find the time, my college course! I kept thinking “I’ll update when I get back from work” but by the time I got back [...]

Well I’m officially 23 now, and have been for a few days.  Not that it matters much, it’s not getting me into any other places I wasn’t allowed to go into before Saturday . The weird thing is, yes I turned 23 last Saturday but I felt 23 already a few months ago. I [...]

In just 2 days I will be 23 hehe I feel so old just thinking of it, although 23 is not old at all . I know that this year will be a good year for me, it has already started off really well, I got my own apartment, and I will be moving [...]

First I’d like to say Happy Birthday to my good friend Liesbeth (or as I call her, Lilly as with all the Liesbeth’s I know it can get quiet confusing!). It’s Lilly’s birthday today and she will be turning…a year older.. yeah let’s keep it at that as I don’t want to get hurt for [...]

Phew, after quiet a bit of shopping I have nearly all my furniture and everything else I need for my apartment. There are still a few things I need, besides the accessories. Especially for the kitchen. I want to make a bar in the kitchen were I can eat at. Mainly because if I would [...]

I’m not going to make this very long as I’m not feeling to good but I’m so excited about this that I had to share! I’m moving house,yes, I’m moving out to an apartment. I’ll be moving end of March or the beginning of April depending on when the current tenant moves out. The apartment is [...]

Today I was working on getting the archive set up properly. I was copy and pasting posts over from the old archive (which is still up and it will be until the WP Archive is all done) and I came across some post from a few years ago. I can’t believe I wrote all that [...]

So finally Word Press is up and running. It took me all weekend to figure out how to code it so it fit my site but I finally did it. Now all I have to do is link to the correct archive page but I will do that when I have moved over all the [...]

Just a quicky today. I’m currently working on my clients website and on setting up WordPress on Silent Butterfly. That’s also the reason for my lack of updates. I don’t write much at the moment because a. I don’t have much time and b. I will have to transfer everything to WordPress once that’s set [...]

Today was my first day at work again in the new year. I don’t really like the whole “you have to shake hands with everyone” deal that comes along with wishing everyone happy new year. Not that I mind shaking hands but you’re also going to shake hands with people you don’t even know. That’s [...]

I want to wish everyone a very happy new year, that 2006 may be a wonderful year for all of you!!
Luckily I didn’t have to spend the night in Best after work last Friday. Even though the weather was pretty bad, there was quiet some snow on the ground and the roads were pretty [...]

They have been predicting snow storms all week now but there haven’t really been any so far. I like snow, it’s nice, if you don’t have to go anywhere that is. Tomorrow there is a 90 % chance they will call out a national weather alarm which means we if we have to go [...]

Today I finally found some time to take some new photographs. I woke up this morning only to see that it had snowed a little during the night. The yard was covered with a thin layer of snow, which looked more like icing powder than snow. So I took my camera and took some [...]

Just a short note to wish everyone very Happy Holidays!! For me Christmas is almost over (a little over an hour to go) and tomorrow we have Boxing Day (which in Holland is called Second Christmas Day).
Last night we had a really nice dinner with the family and we unwrapped the presents under the tree. [...]

Even though the last few days I’ve been worried about Dribbel, he seems to do better!! I realize he’s not out of the woods yet but this morning when I opened his stable door I saw some of the “old” Dribbel back as he trotted out of his stable instead of having him wait for [...]

So I finally decided to set up the CuteNews blog system because I felt it was too much of a hassle lately to open up the html editor and type it all out by hand, close everything, and upload it all. Ofcourse I still have to edit some files by hand every time I update [...]

So today is QBee Blog Day. Which basically means everyone in the QBee is writing something about The QBee Quilt in their blogs. So let me start from the beginning. The QBee Quilt is a pixeling club which involves trading patches (which you will find on a quilt, therefor it’s called the QBee Quilt). It [...]

This is going to be a short entry. I’m in bed at the moment feeling rather bad. I’m down with the flu… It started last night and I hoped it would be gone by the morning but it wasn’t, it only got worse. So I had to call in sick from work, arrange for someone [...]

It’s been ages once again, and this time there really isn’t an excuse. I’ve just been lazy.. Sure I have to do a lot of things around the house because mom’s shoulder still isn’t healed but I have had a bit of time to go online and surf the net so I could have written [...]

I always knew that the days (well weeks) before the holidays were really busy but I’ve never been so busy the weeks before Christmas as I am now. First there is mom’s shoulder surgery which she had 2 weeks ago. The recovery period is about 4 – 6 months so I have to do most [...]

Things have been rather hectic here for the last week or so, that’s mainly the reason why I didn’t update sooner. Mom was on the waiting list to have surgery on her shoulder, they told her the surgery would be somewhere in December 2005 but maybe if she was luck y there would be [...]

Yesterday they came to pick up my car to get it fixed in the garage. I really hoped I would get some good news about the costs of all that was wrong with it. They told me that it would in the worst case be around $400 (which later got ‘upgraded’ to $500) but today [...]

I’d like to start with wishing Lindsay a very happy birthday. Lindsay is one of my best friends but unfortunately she moved to Canada 5 years ago and I haven’t seen her since. Ofcourse we spoke (and speak) on the phone and over MSN but it’s just not the same. She used to live in [...]

It’s pretty funny to see that I’m writing my current entry exactly 3 days later then the previous one. I’m even writing it at the very same time as 3 days ago. Honestly I’m not doing it on purpose, which you might think. It’s just that usually I go have a lay down at around [...]

Yesterday I met up with Noëlla who had a day off from college. We went to do some (window)shopping in the city and went to see a movie. I saw some cute earrings in the shape of dreamcatchers but they only had 1 pair and the left and right earring didn’t match, one had black [...]

I hope everyone has had a good Halloween!! Like I said in my previous blog, we don’t celebrate Halloween in The Netherlands as it’s celebrated in the US but over the past few years in the bigger cities they’ve been organizing Trick or Treat groups for little kids to go Trick or Treating. I personally [...]

It’s really fall now, the rain has started pooring yesterday and it hasn’t stopped yet. Well acually I’m lying at the moment we are having a dry spell, but that’s all. My arthritis is killing me again and that’s why I’m currently [...]

I worked yesterday and made some extra money to take with me to the UK, but I was supposed to work today and darnit my legs had to spoil it for me. It’s been going so well for the last 2 and a half month, [...]

Nothing has really changed from yesterday, at least when it comes to the weather and the pain. I’m still in agony and I’ve spend most of the time in bed today, just sleeping or reading my new book, “”The Surgeon” by Tess Gerritsen. [...]

I’ve been waiting for this ever since September 20th. My tickets for the Hanson concert on October 21th are sent out today. They should arrive tomorrow or something. I’m very excited and I finally came to realize I’m acually going [...]

Update more often then I do now, but seriously there isn’t much to tell. College is a hell of a lot of work and takes up alot of time, and besides that it’s just haning out with my friends.
I went horseriding yesterday and I asked [...]

Keeping it short, just wanna say I’m ok lol and that I’m too busy with other stuff to acually blog long. And right now I’m too busy with being lazy I want to go back to my bed so I’m not sitting here for very [...]

Ok you all have the right to yell at me for not blogging yesterday, I know I promised and I’ve been so stupid to forget about blogging. I went to bed quiet early coz I had early classes today but when I lay in bed [...]

I’ll be in England 3 weeks from now, or acually I will be in less then 3 weeks. I’m so excited. Although I don’t think it has really hit me yet that I’m acually going to see Hanson in London. For those of you who [...]

Urgh I hate to be sick, I missed another day at college today coz I feel so sick, I throw up all the time etc etc, I think it’s the stomach flu as it’s going around, my sister and dad had it last week. No [...]

I don’t really know where to start acually. I had a wonderful weekend at the sea with Noëlla and the horses. The weather was great and the stables we stayed at were wonderful. Very pretty, and nice rooms with comfortable [...]

So I’m back but I’m not blogging long today. I had such a great time at the sea, but I’ll tell you about it tomorrow… I have a really sore head and am extremely tired so I need some sleep.
My stitches aren’t out yet, they [...]

I’m not closing the site or something I just won’t be blogging untill Sunday or Monday if things go well. If I’m up to it tomorrow I’m driving down to the sea with Noëlla to ride our horses for the weekend. I stayed home [...]

First of all sorry for the lack of updates, I had my surgery yesterday and things went ok, but even though they said it would take about 15 minutes it lasted for an hour. I’ve been on the operating table for an hour coz there [...]

Don’t know what the titel is about but I’m kinda empty when it comes to entry titels lol. Who gives a damn anyway coz hardly anyone reads this. Right so I went back to college today. It was fun but having theory classes all day [...]

I went to work yesterday for the first time. It was good fun. It’s a nice job, pays well and is close to my house so what more do I want? I didn’t blog yesterday coz I got home a little after 8 PM last [...]

College was ok today, my Microbiology class seemed to go by faster then last week. Maybe it was just a bit of a start up problem. My teacher for Biochemistry was ill [again] so we were off an hour early. Which was great coz it [...]

I think everyone knows it but for those of you who were hiding under a rock then or just didn’t remember it’s September 11 today. Today 2 years ago 2792 people died in the terrorist attacks on the Twin Towers and the Pentagon in [...]

Went to college agian today as usual lol, only I could sleep in untill about 6.45 AM which was a bit of a relief. I had to get the 7.42 AM bus but fuck I hate that one since it’s so busy you have to [...]

College was fun today, my classes went by pretty fast and we had some good laughs during our breaks and during english class. Dorethy our teach is a good laugh coz usually she makes you do hardly any work, and today she [...]

I haven’t done much today acually I got up at around Noon to go and see my mom, who was at the new building of her company which opened today. It looked really nice and it also seemed like there was alot of space. I [...]

Went horseback riding again for the first time in 3 months today. I was really looking forward to it and I had a good time although I was knackered after my 1 hour class. Even the horses had to get their conditions back up lol. [...]

And I need it lol. First of all I want to say sorry for not updating like I said I would. Damn it but yesterday my computer froze 3 times in 15 minutes, after rebooting it I was able to finally type out my blog [...]

Short blog, just wanna say first day at college was awesome. I had tons of fun with my friends. It was long though, from 8.45 AM till 4.45 PM and getting up at 6.15 AM lol. I only just got in from Scuba Diving. It [...]

Even though I was off from college today, I was busy as fuck. I had to decode my schedual which I think I did pretty well. Went to the doctors office to get my B12-shot and I went to ask the doctor about the bump [...]

Man I just got back from college about 3 hours ago and I already need a holiday lol. We arrived at the campus and went to the bookstore first thing, so luckily it was’t that busy yet so I could buy my books in peace. [...]

First of all I’d like to thank Raven for the fansign she gave me. She emailed me last week and I only saw her email last friday coz I’ve been away all week but I didn’t notice the fansign she [...]

So I’m back from my week at the ridingschool for my job as a camp councelor. It really was great fun. The kids were chatty and a bit hyper but it was all good. No accidents or something like that. Everything went really really well. [...]

I need to go in about 2 hours and I have some stuff to do before I leave so I’m going to keep this rather short. I woke up at 8.15 AM today [gosh how early especially for a Sunday] and started cleaning my room [...]

Well there you have it, my new layout. I hope you all like it and that it’s more colorful then the last one [as requested lol]. I think I like it but it’s not completely finished yet, I want to make bars like on top [...]

So little time to do it in. Nah not really lol. I’ve been doing alot today. I’ve been looking again for jobs. But most of them are telemarketing things. I don’t want to sell insurances or anything. That’s just not me. I’m still [...]

I’m really sorry for not blogging yesterday but the stupid provider decided to fuck up and not work. I kept checking all night to see if they were up [as they were down from like after dinner] but nothing… So at 11.30 PM I [...]

I went to the hospital today to talk to my boss. Well acually I thought I had an appointment with a lady from work, but it turned out to be the boss at personell bussiness, my boss in the kitchen and another guy. Surprise, [...]

I’m currently not really in the mood to blog. My arthritis is been acting up again and for the past 6 days my legs have been cooperating fine but like an hour ago they bailed on me again :worried:. Therefore [...]

So Marleen came to stay at my house yesterday. We first planned on going to the mid-summer-festival, but I checked the program and we weren’t sure if we would like the artists performing there. So instead we decided to go [...]

Note Bloghop is currently down, hence the error on my site..
My day started off completly sucky. It started with my computer who had a virus on it all of a sudden, one moment it was working fine and the next thing [...]

So my parents and I drove to Belgium today to see if they had any pools left. Not those inflatable ones, but one of those bigger ones [over 3 meters in size] and pretty high you would have to get in with a stairs. You [...]

Acually I have no clue what to write lol. It hasn’t really been an exciting day, nothing much happened. I did some work, created some windows XP CD’s for our new computer [ I was searching for those coz they weren't included [...]

It’s Bex 19th birthday today so go visit her and wish her a happy 19th! I went to my boss today, and he was shocked to see me in a wheelchair [although I did tell them] but whatever, for now [...]

Did I tell you about one of our cats having 3 kittens, we found out a few days ago. They are so cute and small. When you enter the stable the climb up your legs and if you put your hand on the floor they [...]

OMG I know it’s not Monday yet but they have released the EP now, I’ve ordered it straight away. It really isn’t that expensive it’s $8.99 but the shipping costed me $8.70 so I have to pay like $17.69 but that’s ok coz it’s [...]

Underneath Acoustic by Hanson was supposed to be released today, but up untill now it’s still not available online. It is available at the venues already but something seems to be wrong with the online store, it’s said that they [...]

I don’t know why but my room seems to be full of [invisable] musquitos. Every time I kill one of those bloodsucking maniacs, there’s another one taking it’s place. It’s odd coz when you look around my room you don’t see them. [...]

Uhm not, lol but I wish, coz things would cool down around here then. I’m nearly floating out of my room that’s how much I’m sweating lol so this is going to be a short blog. Started a new book today. It’s called “I’ll [...]

Gotta love this song.. it’s by Amy Studt. I like it coz it’s so stubborn lol. Besides, I really don’t think you need to “fit in” with cliques etc. If people can’t accept you the way you are they aren’t worth spending [...]

I haven’t been myself today. I got home from my holiday a bit ill last week, and I thought it would pass but it doesn’t. It’s getting worse acually. I’m caughing my lungs out again, my nose keeps running and is completely blocked, [...]

Had a doctors appointment this morning for my 2nd B12 injection. I first went to talk to the doctor to see if he had heard anything from the hospital yet, and if so if he could tell me where I got the B12 problem from [...]

And to be honest I don’t care at the moment. It’s too hot to be behind the computer. We’re having a heathwave like most other places in the world. I’m not planning on sitting in my room [which is in the attick mind you] getting [...]

Ooh wow that was one hell of a holiday. In the good sense of the word lol don’t get me wrong! Tessa didn’t get to my house untill about 10.30 PM on Sunday night because her brother had to drive her, but before he could [...]

I’m so excited, I’m leaving tomorrow for Luxembourgh. I really can’t wait!!! We need to be at the bus at 9.45 AM then we will head of to Brussels where we will have time to walk around and do some sightseeing etc. Ooh and ofcourse [...]

I suppose that’s what the firemen asked themselfs when they drove up the street today and stopped near my house, got out of their car and couldn’t see a fire. They got called out to my street coz there was a fire, they had big [...]

I know it’s relatively early for me to blog. But I think if I don’t do it now, I’ll defenatly won’t today. It’s friday and there is loads on tv today. I know I should go out and hang in a bar but a) I [...]

This is going to be a short blog. I’m not in the mood to write, I’m too tired and not feeling up to it. I tried not to fall asleep today during the day but I think I slept for 30 minutes at around 4 [...]

Woke up at about 9.30 AM this morning, coz my dad phoned me. It was time for me to get up anyway lol but whatever. Couldn’t really sleep last night. I thought I heared a big bang in the middle of the night and after [...]

Like usualy I haven’t done much today. I woke up this morning to find out I couldn’t move my legs again.. been crawling around the house all day. B12 is a bitch. I went to the mall this morning with my mom, we wanted to [...]

…Ooh wait no don’t do that, just deal with the fact that I’m legally insane hehe. I’m in an awefully happy mood tonight and I don’t know why exactly. It can’t be the alcohol since I only drank like 1 glass. Maybe it was just [...]

It has been a wonderful day again today. The weather was great, nothing that needed to be done, just a gorgeous day off [and that in my summer holiday hehe]. We had a great BBQ, just me, mom and dad, as Niki and Rob are on holiday now. She texted me last night to see [...]

So I couldn’t walk last night again, acually half way through the day I couldn’t walk again. It lasted untill around noon today. It has been quiet good all day only now I can acually feel it go numb, so I know not to stand up when I’m done writing this. If I do I’ll [...]

It’s friday night and I’m home… like most fridays lol. I wonder why my friends have to live so far away . Right now I’m having a meeting with May for HTP, but well we haven’t done much yet although we have been talking for nearly 2 hours hehe. Sad but true, we yapp more [...]

It hasn’t been as warm today as it has been for the last week or so. That’s good though that means I can finally have a good night sleep in my room. I sleep in the attick so its always really really warm there.It doesn’t matter if I keep my windows shut and my curtains [...]

So I got my test results today from the hospital. The MRI scan didn’t show any abnormalities in my spinal marrow. Which I’m really happy about. My blood test however shows that the value of my Vitamin B12 is waaaay to low it’s a 110 and it should be 130 [the resources on the internet [...]

I suppose that counts for everyone. Warm days are nice, hot days are shit to be honest :double, well for me anyway. My arthritis kills me again but heck at least the sun shines. It’s the same for me when it rains, so basicly the weather is never right. Maybe I should move to Mars [...]

First of all I want to say that if you don’t see any updates here untill Tuesday next week that’s coz my FTP is down and Kerry isn’t around to fix it. He’s currently in Toronto and will go to Hawaii after. He won’t be back untill Tuesday week. I really don’t need to give [...]

Joy, I’m acually writing without knowing when I’m going to upload this. Kerry has left for Canada today and just my luck, the FTP is down :double. I emailed him saying it is down as I know he checks his email even when he’s away. So hopefully I acually uploaded this on the 13th. If [...]

I’m glad to see some people acually agree with me about those online bitches (see Raven I left little out this time ) who go and brag about their suicide attempts as if it is cool and totally normal to do. And who clique everyone they meet. Urgh they still piss me off and [...]

You guys have no idea how annoying they can be…:rage: the little 14 year old girls that call everyone that’s different then them whores/sluts/scum and what not. Earlier today I was reading a blog of a 15 year old lil b*tch that was complaining about her life being so bad. How she doesn’t have any friends, and [...]

Go on yell at me.. I know I should have updated. Sorry that I didn’t but as always I have a (good) excuse. Tessa stayed at my place from Tuesday untill today, she just left to go home. We went to see Charlie’s Angels 2 on Tuesday and yesterday we went to the Megafestatie where [...]

God I’m early with blogging today. I’m bored to tears so yeah I’ve got to do something eh. I’m currently talking to a whole lot of people on MSN: Tessa, Raven, Kerry and a guy which I’ll call Doodle for now. Well acually I think he’s reffered to as “man” as he’s 35. [...]

Hooray it’s Sunday, I love Sundays. Mainly coz it usually means that I can sleep in and that there are cool series on TV that I can watch from my beloved (water)bed. But yeah Sundays make my day . As you would have expected I wanted to sleep in today as well, but my [...]

Acually I did fuck all today. Just spend most of the day in bed watching DVD’s and TV. Heck I didn’t even log onto MSN and AIM today untill now. I have my reason though. I don’t feel to good :double I have had a throatache for about 2 days now. I’m coughing my lungs [...]

Happy Independance Day to all of you Americans :american: make it a wonderful celebration. Ok with that off my chest. I just found out I’m worth $1,862,538.00. isn’t that a lil underrated? I personally think I’m priceless don’t you all agree! Riiight.
I acually got some work done today. I’m planning on doing some [...]

College is finally over, I only have to go there next week to pick up another reportcard with my new grades on it (hopefully I did Biochemistry ok). I totally screwed up my math today, it was really really hard. Everyone thought so, I only heard like 1 person say she didn’t think it was [...]

I didn’t blog yesterday, so bite me I didn’t have time so screw you if you hate me for that! I was so busy yesterday, first I had to go pick up my rapportcard at college which took ages, coz they weren’t done yet and the director still had to sign them…darnit we had to [...]

So Silent Butterfly might have some downtime in the next few weeks. Kerry (my sweet “host”) is going to transfer the domain to another server. Hopefully it won’t be down too long as I don’t know how I would survive it..
Well with that off my chest.. as you might have noticed I added a splash [...]

Enetation is really starting to piss me off. For those of you who don’t know what or who enetation is, they provide my free comment box after every blog entry. They have been down for 2 days now, well with maybe an uptime of 30 fucking minutes or so. Usually they are ok, I don’t [...]

Wow this morning I could wiggle my toes, and as the day went on I could acually do a few steps, I’m so proud but at the same time I’m so tired of this whole thing. Hopefully they will find something in the scans on Monday.
Went into town with my mom and my sister today, [...]

So I got an extra job for the summer, it’s at home work for the summer, filling in adresses for a website who gathers companies for a website on everything that has to do with marriage . Me and my beloved net are together for the summer lol. Hey don’t laugh, I do have [...]

Had my last resit today, or well sorta, I have 1 more resit to do but that’s next week and I don’t even know what day yet or what time, so for now, I’m on holiday. Hooray, it’s about time too hehe. I don’t have to go back to college (other then for the resit [...]

It’s finally here, the new layout, I hope you guys all like it. It’s not completely done yet well some subpages still need to be re-coded but I’m sure it will be done in the next few days. For now the resolution for best view is 800 x 600 but I will make a layout [...]

I still don’t know if I made it to the next year lol. Just assume I didn’t my grades weren’t that good but I can only resit one since that’s the only one under a 4 out of 10. The rest higher then a 4 out or 10 but can’t be resat unless the average [...]

Didn’t do shit all day. My legs feel a bit funny so I gotta take it easy. Doctors appointment in the hospital is tomorrow. A bit nervous but not too much. I’m not expecting anything because they didn’t do anything last time. Although I’m hoping they will do something this time.. a person can have [...]

I bought a new digital cam today. It’s a Fujifilm FinePix A202. It really rocks my socks. I wanted to buy the Trust something lol it was alot cheaper but the guy in the store showed me that the quality was alot worse so yeah I decided to get this one.
Layout is coming along great. [...]

Exams are over. Last day was sweating over physics, which I probably did crap . And the 9 out of 10 I got to get up my grades for physics isn’t counting coz I was sick a few times when he took in work unexpectedly so now my grade doesn’t count darnit! But ooh [...]

I have my last exam tomorrow, it’s physics, and we get to keep a booklet with our notes with us during our exam is that cool or what! Microbiology went ok-ish today hehe. Let’s hope it was good enough.
Gotta go to hospital on Monday @ 3.30 PM. I’m not too happy about the day and [...]

Yep I’m down again, in my wheelchair that is! Crap, I came home today after college exams (which went good btw). Wanted to poor in a glass of Grapefruit Fanta and boom, there I was on the floor again. Well more like hanging from the kitchen sink then on the floor but whatever, I can’t [...]

So yeah, I had my biochemistry exam today, everyone left the room after 20 minutes, while they gave us 2 hours to do it in.. We are a bit worried though, we’re afraid it was a bit too easy so probably we missed some important stuff and we all get to do a resit for [...]

So first examday is over, I think I did pretty well on Math lol but maybe not to good on Biology although I reviced that for 2 weeks omg! All I can say really is “fingers crossed” nothing can be changed now!!
I promised this blog will be a bit more exciting then the last few [...]

It’s official, I’m knackered…I’ve been revising all day. I know it’s father’s day but my family doesn’t really celebrate it, or at least do something special with the family. We bought my dad a present, made him breakfast (well my mom did I just made the tea lol, mom beat me to the breakfast thing) [...]

First of all my apologies to you all. My blogs are going to be even more boring then they already are for the next week or so. Exams are starting on Monday and I don’t think anything exciting is going to happen during those . I reviced my math all afternoon, I’m about to [...]

Right I’m back as promised hooray for me. I got a whole shitload to tell really, although it mighn’t be interesting! Right so I went to my “classes” @ college today. It was the last day today except for the exams and some other random crap such as checking grades, signing up for [...]

Just a quick line, I’m about to have breakfast and go to college….
Finished my essay last night just a lil before midnight and so I couldn’t be arsed to blog anymore after that lol. Going to hand it in today!> Right that’s it for now, more later today, I’ll update DD etc later xox

It’s my sister’s birthday today, she turns 17! Congrats sweets . Didn’t go to college again today, I’m still very sore, I can’t even be bothered to type this out. Anyway I just got back from Niki up north. We went out for dinner with the family and Rob. Dinner was nice, in a [...]

Ok I have no idea what to write about today. My day was absolutely crap. I went to college today but came home after 30 minutes coz I’m so sore today. My arthritis is killing me. And it pisses me off coz I had 2 labtests today which I studied hard for and now I [...]

 had a great time this weekend @ Tessa’s house and at the festival. I went to Tessa’s at around 6 PM-ish, she cooked dinner for us (Chicken Palava) which was yummie. I never had it before but it’s tasty (although it doesn’t look it hehe.. it’s a green-ish liquid something). After dinner we decided to [...]

Hey guys, just a short blog I’m about to go to Tessa’s house, so no Daily Doubles or anything fancy lol, just me saying bye for the weekend..
Just had a quick shower after my horse riding and now I gotta go, I’ll be back soon (Monday latest) surprise me with loadsa comments etc, everything seems [...]

Finally weekend, I really need it too. So much work to do for college it’s not funny anymore. We didn’t have to do anything at the beginning of this semester and now the last week of college we have 3 presentations, 1000 essays to write and to study for our exams. Blah talking about stress…
So [...]

So I did loads of homework yesterday for today’s classes, went to my classes today and nothing has been done with the homework, how sucky is that?!!
Had some tests today too, not too bad coz they were just for practacing and we could decide ourselfs if we wanted to do them…which I did btw =)
My [...]

You probably wonder what I mean by being back eh? Well I haven’t had internet on my own computer up in my room for like 7 months and had to share the downstairs computer with my sister and the rest of the family. I really missed just being able to go online whenever I wanted [...]

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Tessa happy birthday to you. Now that wasn’t so bad eh? I remember you telling me to shut up this morning, meaning that I can’t sing, but I personaly think this birthday song I just sang you was very much in tune thank you [...]

OMG, the last couple of days have been so hot, it really felt as if we had a heathwave or something, but now it’s started to rain (although the weatherforcast is good), not just drip drip kinda rain, no it’s fucking raining cats and dogs! Oi, man I though we were going to drown lol, [...]

God the weather is nice, it’s really starting to feel like summer now. Not too long from now and I’ll be on my summer holiday from college and away with Tessa to The Ardennes. Went to sleep at around midnight last night it’s so warm that it’s impossible to sleep earlier then that in my [...]

Coz I was so .::.shocked.::. yesterday by the fansign I got from Dan lol I completely forgot to give you all the Daily Doubles. That’s ok though I’ll just do it for 2 days today. I hardly did anything today, I just sat on my ass behind the computer all day working on Becks’ website.I [...]

Went to the international horse competition @ Karpendonk today with Noëlla and Almar, it was great fun but really really hot =S which meant it wasn’t really that busy as we expected, or according to Noëlla as busy as it was yesterday. Weird, but I bet it’s going to be busy on Sunday, it usually [...]

Went to the fair today, there was once because it’s a national holiday here called Hemelvaart, it’s a catholic holiday, but basicly everyone celebrates it. Anyway to make a long story short, I went with my parents, I bought myself another pair of capris simular the ones I bought a few weeks back, only in [...]

Yeah I’m on a short holiday (yes again!) Gotta go back to college on Monday. So that’s not too bad now is it . Had a 3 hour day today @ college. 3 Theory classes: first up was Biology, then came Microbiology we then luckily had a 15 minute break and last but not [...]

Well this is going to a be short one, it’s acually Wednesday morning now and I’m having some classes soon so I gotta go in a second to be on time . I coudln’t upload anything yesterday so let’s pretend this is my entry for May 27 lol.
Right I’ll write more later just go [...]

Had a wonderful weekend as you may have read in my last blog.. Unfortunately this morning wasn’t so great, I tried to get out of bed but my damned legs aren’t working again. Me and my parents are thinking of going to another hospital again to get me checked coz this can’t last forever. I [...]

Had the horseriding competition today. I’m in the L1 class (which means Light 1) and hopefully next time I’ll be in L2 (which is Light 2. And I got myself a red ribbon, that’s what you get when you turn 2nd!!! I had 177 points and first place was 181 points. Jennifer the girl I [...]

Had an extra training today at 11.30 AM. Horseriding that is, the competition is tomorrow. Only 9 are competing with eachother in the “horses” catagory, there’s about 18 in the “ponies” catagory. Well acually in the horse one it’s 8 now since Kelly cancelled today because she is ill. I’m the only one riding Fox [...]

My blog used to be hosted by Lyn coz she had a movable-type system. Yes I said had because she closed down her site without a warning. Isn’t that nice. I have no idea if she will be back or what because if you go to her site it says something about main page from [...]