I haven’t been myself today. I got home from my holiday a bit ill last week, and I thought it would pass but it doesn’t. It’s getting worse acually. I’m caughing my lungs out again, my nose keeps running and is completely blocked, and because I caugh so much, my throat hurts and coz that hurts my ears are starting too. I’ve been in bet most of the day just reading and watching a DVD [Dragonfly]. Even though it was hot up in my room, it just felt comfy laying around doing shit all. The whole B12 thing and the arthritis, made my immuunsystem completely crash I think. Tessa gave this to me :rage:, not that she could do anything about it, she ran out of medicine right before our holiday so she had to go without for like 1 day [she had them with her on holiday] and when she doesn’t take them, she gets ill, making me ill as I catch it so quickly. But whatever… right now I’m waiting for my paracetamol with codeine [to stop the caughing hopefully] to dissolve in a bit of water. I had some nose spray so maybe that will open things up.

My ranting doesn’t stop here, ooh no… I have to go to hospital tomorrow, to a doctor I have never seen before, he’s going to do some tests on me, to see if I’m capable to drive a car. Fuck man this better turn out good, I’m not planning on getting my lisence with a big sticker saying “disabled, threat like a morron” coz that’s usually what they do, if people see the word disabled, they immediatly think you are a morron and an idiot. You may say that it’s not true, but believe me if you think so you obviously haven’t been there. I don’t think of myself as disabled not at all, but if I happen to be in my wheelchair during the day and I’m at the mall or whatever, they close the door in your face when you enter a shop, talk to the person whos with you in the store etc etc. And it sucks dick, I hate it, talk to me I’m able to talk, I just can’t walk. One time I was in the record shop buying Three Car Garage [ooh man this is long ago] by Hanson, so I put the CD on the desk to pay for it, and she goes to ask my dad, who was with me at the time, if I really wanted that CD. For fuck sake woman, a) talk to me b) I didn’t put it there coz I wanted it to be destroyed c) it’s none of your bussiness if I really want or not, as long as I pay for it, what the fuck do you care!

Right I’m off coz I’m about to punch the computer, just thinking about the unfair threatment disabled people get makes me want to hurt someone! Plugs are for Raven, Bex and Brittany. Daily Doubles have been updated, the SB forum is still open, I got accepted to Provance.net [points to the top of her blog]. For those of you who come and read my blogs for the first time. I’m not all negative, I suggest you read some of my other entries. I’m just a dropkick at times and I like to vent at the world occasionally. Later dropsticks x

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