Not as Sweet as you think I am!
Usually I’m considered a very friendly person (or so I’m told anyway). I get comments like ‘you seem to like everyone you meet‘ or ‘you always see the good things in people‘. But (fortunately) that’s not always the case. There are certain people I see on a regular basis (not by choice!) that I really can’t stand. Just seeing them makes my skin itch. Unfortunately I can’t always avoid them. In the past I always put on a friendly face because I didn’t want to be rude but lately I found myself showing how I really feel about them. Does all of this make me seem as arrogant or a bitch? Maybe, but honestly, I really don’t care. I’ve had enough of always ‘playing nice’. This doesn’t mean I will go about bitching to everyone but if I have a problem with someone, this person will know 
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It’s extremely annoying to have someone interrupting you while you’re trying to have a decent conversation with someone. Especially if this person interrupting you, isn’t supposed to be part of the conversation in the first place. The person I’m talking about right now (let’s call her X) is supposed to do her job 1 day a week. When I’m there and she is working, she completely stops what she is doing, comes over to me and whoever I’m talking to and just stands there listening. Sometimes she even tries to tell me what to do. Sure she might be older than me, but that doesn’t give her the right to tell me what to do at all. I’m 23 not 4!
Anyway I think she is figuring out that I don’t like her much. Every time she interrupts or stops doing what she’s paid to do I either ignore her or tell her it’s non of her business.
The other day I walked in wearing an old t-shirt and jeans as I was redecorating my new apartment. She made a comment about my jeans as they are all ripped up and have big holes in them. I told her they were working jeans (I don’t even have to do that as I don’t have to justify what I’m wearing and why to anyone!) but she goes on in a sarcastic way asking if this was the latest fashion. Generally I would have given a polite answer but I just told her to listen what someone says before she talks again, turned around and walked out of the room. It might not seem like anything major and it probably isn’t but so many things have happened and have been said before, and now I really have had enough.
It actually feels good. I kind of feel that I really am ‘myself’ right now. I’m not a bitchy person, or mean for that matter but I’ve always tried to stay friendly with people even if they weren’t too friendly to me. I also consider myself a friendly person but I think it’s time the ‘real’ me shows herself. From now on I’ll be nice and polite if you’re nice and polite to me. If you aren’t you can have it your way but you’ll have another thing coming. I’ve hidden my mean-face long enough.
Phew I really think with the move etc I’m starting a new phase in my life where I finally can be myself. Overall nice but a mean one if I need to be. I guess it had to do with the fact that I always wanted people to like me, but recently I came to the conclusion that I shouldn’t give a rat’s ass what people think of me. I should be liked for who I really am and I know that the people who really know me, know the real me, do like me, even though I’m not always a very nice person to be around
No more sugar-coating, I don’t need the extra sugar. I’m sweet enough as ‘the real deal’. That’s it for now, later dropsticks x
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Wow, I would have probably said the same sort of thing to “X” too. How annoying she is to NOT just listen to what you say, then to just presume it’s fashion, and be sarcastic!
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